Some part of me still loves you dearly. I still can't forgive you.
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I never want to wake up
Living your faint memory
I want to wake up in your bed
Fucking scared
Pushing through the bullshit
And working up the nerve to speak
( Lucky Strike - Foot Ox )
i'll never be the son you raised
i can see it in your eyes
you claim you still love me
and that i will always be your son
that God makes no mistakes
that i can always talk to you
that it is okay that i am slightly effeminate
you treat me like i am confused
like i just don't understand who i am
when you have never felt the pain
the misery
of wearing someone else's skin
i want to love you
some part of me
loves you dearly
you sacrificed so much for me
and yet
when you ask me for help after you berated me
after you treated your daughter like filth
your daughter who knows the pains
of not being who she wants
the pain of wanting to tear yourself to shreds
the pain of being covered in vile, disgusting fur
the pain of being unable to speak without cringing
the pain of
never being
the son you loved
i love you
that's why i don't want to see you again.
